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“You don’t have any feelings for him at all?” Simone asks and I shake my head.
“No of course not, we’re just flirty friends.” I answer. I know I’m jealous of Lucy and I have a sneaky suspicion that they just figured it out but I’m not about to admit how I’m feeling. I don’t understand my own feelings, never mind telling others.
The girls look like they don’t believe me at all. I look over at Bear to see that Lucy is still watching me only this time she smirks over at me. The fucking bitch smirks right at me! She knows what she’s doing.
I smile right back, raising my glass to her.
Game on bitch.
Chapter Six
Bear
I’m not stupid, I felt the hatred between Kristen and Lucy. I knew that they wouldn’t like each other because Lucy has heard me talk about Kristen with my brothers. Lucy has been jealous of Kristen before they met today, obviously she can tell how I feel about Kristen. Everyone but Kristen. They know how much I want her, to touch her and to call her mine. I think even fucking Lucy knows how much Kristen gives me a hard on. I’m not planning on having anything serious with Lucy, I’m having a little fun with her and nothing more, but Kristen doesn’t need to know that does she?
To be brutally honest, I’m sort of using Lucy for my own benefit. I want to make Kristen jealous and regret not being with me. Standing where Lucy is. I didn’t really think I would attempt anything like this. I’ve never chased a woman but here I am! Kristen is mine, whether she knows this yet or not. She makes me so sexually frustrated that I’m glad I have Lucy with me, to help me with my urges. Having to look at Kristen all day today is going to be tough without flirting or letting her know that I want her instead of Lucy, so I’m happy Lucy will be up for anything at the end of the day. I know that makes me sound like a dick and is cruel but I have to do what I can to make it seem I’m not that into Kristen still. I have repeatedly told Lucy that we’re not a couple, never will be but she’s beginning to try and get closer to me. Not physically, but emotionally and I had to remind her last night. She said she understood, but I think she’s lying so she can stay with me longer.
I turn around to get a look at Kristen to see she’s also looking back at me. Noticing me looking at her, Kristen quickly turns back around to talking with Simone and Bailey but she’s too late. I saw her. My eyes travel down to her ass and what a fine fucking sight. I can’t look away, she’s so damn sexy. Lucy notices and yanks on my arm, glaring at me but I just smirk and shrug my shoulders.
“I need the little girls room.” Lucy whines.
“What?” I ask her and she gives me a dumbfound look.
“I need to go to the toilet.” She rolls her eyes.
I get one of the club bunnies to show her to the toilet and as soon as Lucy is out of sight, Breaker begins to quiz me. “What’s going on Bear?”
“What do you mean?” I can’t help but laugh.
Simone takes that moment to wonder over, leaving Kristen with Bailey and I brace myself for what Simone’s got to say. She flashes me with her narrowing eyes before looking to Breaker, her eyes now brightening as her smile appears. They kiss each other, Breakers arms wrapping around her and Simone settles against him. Their kissing continues, not caring about anyone around them. They never do and they shouldn’t as Prez and his Old Lady. It tells the men who she belongs to, and the women of the club and the bunnies to back off Breaker.
With Simone tucked under Breakers arm and looking the strong couple that they definitely are, Simone begins her questioning.
“What the fuck are you playing at Bear?” She glares. I can hear the anger dripping from her mouth.
“What?” I ask, my voice sounding unusually high pitched.
Simone looks pissed off. “You’ve bought that girl into the clubhouse.” She says, pointing into the direction Lucy just walked to. “Not very nice Bear.”
I step closer to Breaker and Simone so we can try to keep this conversation just between us three and without catching the attention of everyone else in the clubhouse. Nosey fucking bastards. “I haven’t done anything wrong.”
“Bear,” Simone sighs. “I told you how much work you’re going to have to put in if you want Kristen and here you are, showing off your new girlfriend! Kristen is confused as to how she feels. She doesn’t know what she’s feeling after what she’s been through. Kristen has been through a lot, more than you know. Hell! I don’t know everything but I know more than you do and I’m telling you to tread carefully.”
Well shit, now I feel bad. I want Kristen and I brought Lucy here to make her jealous. Simple as that but I don’t want to hurt her.
Simone sighs again, but this time she doesn’t sound angry. This time she sounds sympathetic. “I’m not saying treat her like a fragile piece of glass but just keep her past in mind and show her what she means to you. Stop with the cheesy flirting and be you.”
“I just wanted to make her jealous.” He shrugs and Simone shakes her head, this time laughing.
“Typical.” She giggles.
“And let me just fucking add, Lucy isn’t my girlfriend.” I let Simone know. “She’s just a fuck buddy.”
“Oh my god!” Simone yells, patting Breaker on the chest before returning to Kristen’s side.
I look to Breaker. “Well thanks for the back up there brother.”
“What?” Breaker shrugs. “Nothing to do with me.”
Then Lucy returns, a fat grin on her face as she comes to my side. “Hey.”
Breaker decides to leave, not wanting to be around Lucy and to be honest, her presence is annoying me now. Lucy then kisses me on the lips, placing her hand on my jaw to make sure she has her mouth perfectly on mine. She giggles and I look up to see Kristen looking disgusted. I smile at her but she just turns her back to me. I don’t know if I’m happy that brought her along now or not.
Chapter Seven
Bear
The next morning I’m hung over and worn out. Lucy was really fucking frisky last night and she kept me up most of the night. Not that I’m complaining but if she’s carries on like that, then she’s going to work me to a point!
Shaking my head and laughing to myself, I turn the corner to see Kristen sat with Bailey and Charlie having some breakfast. Kristen throws her head back in her laughter as I slowly make my way over.
“Oh look who it is.” Charlie looks at me, causing the little groups laughing to end.
Kristen’s happy expression turns blank as she watches me.
“Girls.” I nod towards the three of them.
“How was your night?” Kristen asks, looking slightly annoyed and if I didn’t know any better, a hint of jealousy to the tone of her voice.
“Tiring.” I can’t help but tease and all three girls scrunch their face in disgust. I know I shouldn’t taunt her, but I can’t help myself obviously. “Can I have a quick chat with you Kristen?”
Kristen smirks. “No.”
She then turns her back to me, returning to her drink and ignoring me.
“Come on.” I try to persuade her. “I won’t be long.”
Kristen turns back to face me. “I’m not bothered about anything you have to say Bear. I’m busy.” I go to ask her again, not wanting to give in. I want to have a serious chat with her, about us. “Go and play with your new friend, I’m with friends and don’t have time for you.”
I’m shocked at how angry she sounds with me. We’ve always joked around but this time she sounds serious. I don’t know how to react. Charlie and Bailey look slightly awkward being caught in this but Kristen is her usual self and looks like she doesn’t give a shit. Slightly pissed off but she covers it with her armour of bitchiness. Approaching the table next to them, I grab a chair and drag it along the floor towards their table. Even though there is an empty spot beside Bailey, I pull up my chair on the end of the table, the closest available space to Kristen. A look of shock appears on her pretty face but it’s quickly gone, her stone like expression back in place.
“I’d rather talk with you alone.” I lean in closer to Kristen.
She gives me an annoyed look. “You can say whatever in front of the girls.”
Bailey and Charlie exchange looks. “We can go?” Bailey questions Kristen but Kristen shakes her head.
“Stay where you are.”
Charlie smirks down at her hands and Bailey nods, her own smirk hidden under her hands as she leans her elbows on the table.
I take a deep breath, swallowing down my pride. “Me and Lucy aren’t anything serious. She’s just a good time, until the one I want lets me close.” I can’t help but smirk and Kristen’s eyes widen but she eventually cracks a smile of her own.
“Wow Bear.” She giggles. “Sucks to be her.”
I can tell she liked what I had to say. “Any idea who I want instead of Lucy?”
Kristen’s cheeks blush and she looks away and down at her uneaten plate. “I have a clue.” She replies quietly but then quickly sits up straight with a fake grin plastered onto her face. “But she says no, especially when she watches you act like a whore.”
Ok, I’m getting somewhere. Just sucks I have to do it in front of Charlie and Bailey. “Look, I’m gonna be brutal here, but I fucking like sex and I’ll have sex. I’d rather it be with someone else but she’s not interested apparently, so I go with someone else instead. Unless she’s changed her mind?”
I catch the look that Charlie and Bailey exchange but Kristen stays silent, looking down at her plate and because I’m watching her so carefully, I see her reaction when Lucy appears, shouting my name. Her eyes close, as if Lucy’s voice gives her pain and her fists clench, making her seem angry. Still, I must be fucked up because she still looks beautiful as ever. As shit as it is, if I didn’t have Lucy to fuck around with I’d be going crazy all of the time! Kristen does something to me and at first it scared the fuck out of me, but now I know I want her. Not like I do with Lucy, Kristen is more than that. Deserves more than that.
“There you are!” Lucy giggles, making her way over and Kristen opens her eyes and rolls them.
I ignore Lucy and lean in close to Kristen. “I’m not proud of it Kris, but you know what I want and you’ve made it clear where you stand. You shoot me down time and time again. I don’t want to hurt you. Lucy doesn’t mean anything to me but you do.” Kristen’s eyes lift to me, smiling slightly. I place my hand on her knee and I feel her flinch, but she doesn’t tell me to fuck off, like she usually does. “If you want her gone, just tell me and she’s gone.”
Kristen looks deep in my eyes, and I can tell she’s seriously thinking about it but she doesn’t say a word. I remove my hand from Kristen’s knee just in time for Lucy to prop herself on my lap. Her arms wrap around my neck and squeeze, obviously claiming me as he territory but completely embarrassing herself. I look at Kristen as Lucy kisses me and I’m not surprised to see Kristen get up from her seat. She frowns at Lucy and me before storming away. Charlie pats me on the shoulder before her and Bailey follow Kristen.
“Thank god we’re alone!” Lucy unnecessarily says loudly. Loud enough for the girls and Kristen to hear her.
“Shut up.” I snap at Lucy and her eyes widen in shock. “I told you, don’t fucking embarrass me.”
“Sorry Bear.” Lucy pokes out her bottom lip. “What can I do to make it up to you?” She bites down on her bottom lip, and ideas pop into mind. I might as well take her up on her offer.
Chapter Eight
Kristen
I haven’t seen Bear for a few days now and that’s how I like it. I can’t stand to see him right now, especially with Lucy hanging off him. The sight makes me feel sick. I’ve purposely kept distant from him because I need a little space. I’ve been feeling a little off and having Bear around me isn’t helping me feel any better. My mind has been torn too since he came to talk with me at breakfast and explained his side. Listening to what he had to say actually pleased me. It was nice to hear him speak without a cheesy line, however I did miss his humour. I honestly don’t know what I want and it’s giving me the mother of all headaches. I’ve always tried to keep Bear at a distance because he made it clear how he feels about me and I can’t handle that right now. Before all the shit with Venom, I would have eaten him alive and be in his bed every night. No question about it, but the experience I shared with some of these girls, has changed me forever and I don’t know how to act anymore. His attention sometimes reminds me of what I heard in the rooms of Venoms hidden torture house, even though I know Bear is absolute nothing like that monster. When Bear told me I could end things with him Lucy in a second, I was so tempted to tell him to do so but something stopped me and I had to witness Lucy pour herself all over him. She knows what she’s doing and her innocent act pisses me off. I’ve even overheard some of the club bunnies talk about her and the fact that they also do not like Lucy tells me what I need to know.
I’ve been seriously thinking things through and once I fight through my torment and anxiety, I think I know what I want but I just can’t bring myself to tell Bear this. I may seem tough and act like a bitch at times, but I promise you, it’s fake. I know I can’t bring myself to approach Bear and tell him to leave Lucy and have me. Be with me. Just thinking those words has my heart racing.
As I walk through the clubhouse, I hear some of the men laughing loudly as they talk. Curiosity gets the better of me when I hear Bear’s voice. I’ve stayed clear of him for as long as I can but hearing his voice and the laughter has me slowly approaching in secret.
“Yeah, her name’s Lucy.” Bear answers someone.
“Not that it matters.” Laughs Axe.
I roll my eyes, this is typical men talk and I’m going to hang around to hear what they have to say.
The laughing calms down and the talking returns. “So, are you two exclusive?”
“You want his girl?” Another asks. “Bro, that’s wrong.”
An unfamiliar feeling hits me in the stomach, like a punch. Thinking of Lucy as ‘his girl.’
“Lucy isn’t my girl.” Bear clarifies and the punch to gut disappears. “She’s just a distraction.”
I can’t keep back the smirk.
“From Kristen.” Axe adds and there’s some more laughing.
Bear then briefly explains what he was trying to tell me at breakfast the other day but then he shocks me with his next words.
“Lucy does give the best blowjobs through.” Anger and sickness build up inside of me as they all burst into laughter once more. “Probably the best I’ve ever had.”
“Seriously?” One of the brothers ask as my nausea builds.
“I think so.” Bear replies and I don’t like the sounds of it. My self-esteem feels knocked and I think it’s because before Venom kidnapped me, I stupidly prided myself on my blowjob skills. Don’t get it twisted though, I didn’t go around sucking every mans dick. It was only with boyfriends at the time and would always say how much they love my blowjobs. I know it’s silly and kind of dumb. Giving blowjobs it an odd thing to pride yourself in, but it gave me great sexual confidence. I feel jealous that Lucy has given Bear a blowjob and that he thinks she’s the fucking best at it. It’s actually my favourite way to please a man, with my mouth. Sometimes I even preferred to suck a cock instead of having sex! I thought I had lost the interest to wrap my mouth around a cock but feeling jealous of Lucy makes me realise I want to give Bear a blowjob and make him realise Lucy is not the right woman for him to do so. Wait until he receives one of mine. I’ll blow his mind. Wanting to compete with Lucy has brought back my desire, it was just lingering under the surface.
With a hell of a lot more confidence than I had just minutes ago, I continue walking and when I past the group of giggling men I just innocently glance over, as if I hadn’t been listening in on their conversation. Maybe gossip group is a lot more accurate.
“Hi guys.” I announce myself, giving them all a sweet smile, my eyes landing on Bear, “a word?”
Awkwardly glancing at the rest of the men, Bear nods. “You ok?” He asks me as he walks closer.
I nod, leading him in the direction of my room. “I need your opinion on something.”
This may seem really fucking stupid and pathetic but I once prided myself on my blowjob skills and now that I know how I feel because my jealousy bubbles more and more, I want to prove to Bear that his little toy isn’t better than me. In any way. I can’t stand Bear thinking Lucy is more talented than me. If it was anyone else then I wouldn’t give a shit, but Bear? I’ve now managed to figure out that I do actually like Bear, perhaps more than I originally thought. He’s grown on me I suppose. That annoys me, but the need to please is stronger than my annoyance.
“Sure.” Bear agrees, sounding a little confused and I understand why. The last time we spoke, it didn’t go so well I guess. He won’t be second guessing me soon though, because I plan on showing him just how good I can be.
My blood rushes and my heart skips a beat. I’m horny for the first time in a long time. It feels good. To be in control of my needs again.
We walk towards my room in silence but I keep looking over at him, offering my smile. Bear’s signature smirk returns and I know he’s feeling the atmosphere.
“Kristen, what are you doing?” He asks, Bear’s voice deep.
“I have something to show you.” I open the door to my room and step inside, holding it open for Bear to follow me inside, locking the door behind him. Bear raises his eyebrows. “What are you doing?” He laughs. Bear must think I’ve gone insane.
Standing opposite him, I begin. “I overheard what you and the brothers were saying.”
“You were eavesdropping?” This seems to shock him.
I giggle, smiling as I slowly walk to him. “One part really interested me.”
Bear seems to catch on, watching me seductively. “Really?” He asks. “Which part?”
I place my finger on his chest, poking his muscles and begin to circle his body. My finger trailing over his body. “Apparently, you’ve had the best blowjob that you’ve ever had?”
“No of course not, we’re just flirty friends.” I answer. I know I’m jealous of Lucy and I have a sneaky suspicion that they just figured it out but I’m not about to admit how I’m feeling. I don’t understand my own feelings, never mind telling others.
The girls look like they don’t believe me at all. I look over at Bear to see that Lucy is still watching me only this time she smirks over at me. The fucking bitch smirks right at me! She knows what she’s doing.
I smile right back, raising my glass to her.
Game on bitch.
Chapter Six
Bear
I’m not stupid, I felt the hatred between Kristen and Lucy. I knew that they wouldn’t like each other because Lucy has heard me talk about Kristen with my brothers. Lucy has been jealous of Kristen before they met today, obviously she can tell how I feel about Kristen. Everyone but Kristen. They know how much I want her, to touch her and to call her mine. I think even fucking Lucy knows how much Kristen gives me a hard on. I’m not planning on having anything serious with Lucy, I’m having a little fun with her and nothing more, but Kristen doesn’t need to know that does she?
To be brutally honest, I’m sort of using Lucy for my own benefit. I want to make Kristen jealous and regret not being with me. Standing where Lucy is. I didn’t really think I would attempt anything like this. I’ve never chased a woman but here I am! Kristen is mine, whether she knows this yet or not. She makes me so sexually frustrated that I’m glad I have Lucy with me, to help me with my urges. Having to look at Kristen all day today is going to be tough without flirting or letting her know that I want her instead of Lucy, so I’m happy Lucy will be up for anything at the end of the day. I know that makes me sound like a dick and is cruel but I have to do what I can to make it seem I’m not that into Kristen still. I have repeatedly told Lucy that we’re not a couple, never will be but she’s beginning to try and get closer to me. Not physically, but emotionally and I had to remind her last night. She said she understood, but I think she’s lying so she can stay with me longer.
I turn around to get a look at Kristen to see she’s also looking back at me. Noticing me looking at her, Kristen quickly turns back around to talking with Simone and Bailey but she’s too late. I saw her. My eyes travel down to her ass and what a fine fucking sight. I can’t look away, she’s so damn sexy. Lucy notices and yanks on my arm, glaring at me but I just smirk and shrug my shoulders.
“I need the little girls room.” Lucy whines.
“What?” I ask her and she gives me a dumbfound look.
“I need to go to the toilet.” She rolls her eyes.
I get one of the club bunnies to show her to the toilet and as soon as Lucy is out of sight, Breaker begins to quiz me. “What’s going on Bear?”
“What do you mean?” I can’t help but laugh.
Simone takes that moment to wonder over, leaving Kristen with Bailey and I brace myself for what Simone’s got to say. She flashes me with her narrowing eyes before looking to Breaker, her eyes now brightening as her smile appears. They kiss each other, Breakers arms wrapping around her and Simone settles against him. Their kissing continues, not caring about anyone around them. They never do and they shouldn’t as Prez and his Old Lady. It tells the men who she belongs to, and the women of the club and the bunnies to back off Breaker.
With Simone tucked under Breakers arm and looking the strong couple that they definitely are, Simone begins her questioning.
“What the fuck are you playing at Bear?” She glares. I can hear the anger dripping from her mouth.
“What?” I ask, my voice sounding unusually high pitched.
Simone looks pissed off. “You’ve bought that girl into the clubhouse.” She says, pointing into the direction Lucy just walked to. “Not very nice Bear.”
I step closer to Breaker and Simone so we can try to keep this conversation just between us three and without catching the attention of everyone else in the clubhouse. Nosey fucking bastards. “I haven’t done anything wrong.”
“Bear,” Simone sighs. “I told you how much work you’re going to have to put in if you want Kristen and here you are, showing off your new girlfriend! Kristen is confused as to how she feels. She doesn’t know what she’s feeling after what she’s been through. Kristen has been through a lot, more than you know. Hell! I don’t know everything but I know more than you do and I’m telling you to tread carefully.”
Well shit, now I feel bad. I want Kristen and I brought Lucy here to make her jealous. Simple as that but I don’t want to hurt her.
Simone sighs again, but this time she doesn’t sound angry. This time she sounds sympathetic. “I’m not saying treat her like a fragile piece of glass but just keep her past in mind and show her what she means to you. Stop with the cheesy flirting and be you.”
“I just wanted to make her jealous.” He shrugs and Simone shakes her head, this time laughing.
“Typical.” She giggles.
“And let me just fucking add, Lucy isn’t my girlfriend.” I let Simone know. “She’s just a fuck buddy.”
“Oh my god!” Simone yells, patting Breaker on the chest before returning to Kristen’s side.
I look to Breaker. “Well thanks for the back up there brother.”
“What?” Breaker shrugs. “Nothing to do with me.”
Then Lucy returns, a fat grin on her face as she comes to my side. “Hey.”
Breaker decides to leave, not wanting to be around Lucy and to be honest, her presence is annoying me now. Lucy then kisses me on the lips, placing her hand on my jaw to make sure she has her mouth perfectly on mine. She giggles and I look up to see Kristen looking disgusted. I smile at her but she just turns her back to me. I don’t know if I’m happy that brought her along now or not.
Chapter Seven
Bear
The next morning I’m hung over and worn out. Lucy was really fucking frisky last night and she kept me up most of the night. Not that I’m complaining but if she’s carries on like that, then she’s going to work me to a point!
Shaking my head and laughing to myself, I turn the corner to see Kristen sat with Bailey and Charlie having some breakfast. Kristen throws her head back in her laughter as I slowly make my way over.
“Oh look who it is.” Charlie looks at me, causing the little groups laughing to end.
Kristen’s happy expression turns blank as she watches me.
“Girls.” I nod towards the three of them.
“How was your night?” Kristen asks, looking slightly annoyed and if I didn’t know any better, a hint of jealousy to the tone of her voice.
“Tiring.” I can’t help but tease and all three girls scrunch their face in disgust. I know I shouldn’t taunt her, but I can’t help myself obviously. “Can I have a quick chat with you Kristen?”
Kristen smirks. “No.”
She then turns her back to me, returning to her drink and ignoring me.
“Come on.” I try to persuade her. “I won’t be long.”
Kristen turns back to face me. “I’m not bothered about anything you have to say Bear. I’m busy.” I go to ask her again, not wanting to give in. I want to have a serious chat with her, about us. “Go and play with your new friend, I’m with friends and don’t have time for you.”
I’m shocked at how angry she sounds with me. We’ve always joked around but this time she sounds serious. I don’t know how to react. Charlie and Bailey look slightly awkward being caught in this but Kristen is her usual self and looks like she doesn’t give a shit. Slightly pissed off but she covers it with her armour of bitchiness. Approaching the table next to them, I grab a chair and drag it along the floor towards their table. Even though there is an empty spot beside Bailey, I pull up my chair on the end of the table, the closest available space to Kristen. A look of shock appears on her pretty face but it’s quickly gone, her stone like expression back in place.
“I’d rather talk with you alone.” I lean in closer to Kristen.
She gives me an annoyed look. “You can say whatever in front of the girls.”
Bailey and Charlie exchange looks. “We can go?” Bailey questions Kristen but Kristen shakes her head.
“Stay where you are.”
Charlie smirks down at her hands and Bailey nods, her own smirk hidden under her hands as she leans her elbows on the table.
I take a deep breath, swallowing down my pride. “Me and Lucy aren’t anything serious. She’s just a good time, until the one I want lets me close.” I can’t help but smirk and Kristen’s eyes widen but she eventually cracks a smile of her own.
“Wow Bear.” She giggles. “Sucks to be her.”
I can tell she liked what I had to say. “Any idea who I want instead of Lucy?”
Kristen’s cheeks blush and she looks away and down at her uneaten plate. “I have a clue.” She replies quietly but then quickly sits up straight with a fake grin plastered onto her face. “But she says no, especially when she watches you act like a whore.”
Ok, I’m getting somewhere. Just sucks I have to do it in front of Charlie and Bailey. “Look, I’m gonna be brutal here, but I fucking like sex and I’ll have sex. I’d rather it be with someone else but she’s not interested apparently, so I go with someone else instead. Unless she’s changed her mind?”
I catch the look that Charlie and Bailey exchange but Kristen stays silent, looking down at her plate and because I’m watching her so carefully, I see her reaction when Lucy appears, shouting my name. Her eyes close, as if Lucy’s voice gives her pain and her fists clench, making her seem angry. Still, I must be fucked up because she still looks beautiful as ever. As shit as it is, if I didn’t have Lucy to fuck around with I’d be going crazy all of the time! Kristen does something to me and at first it scared the fuck out of me, but now I know I want her. Not like I do with Lucy, Kristen is more than that. Deserves more than that.
“There you are!” Lucy giggles, making her way over and Kristen opens her eyes and rolls them.
I ignore Lucy and lean in close to Kristen. “I’m not proud of it Kris, but you know what I want and you’ve made it clear where you stand. You shoot me down time and time again. I don’t want to hurt you. Lucy doesn’t mean anything to me but you do.” Kristen’s eyes lift to me, smiling slightly. I place my hand on her knee and I feel her flinch, but she doesn’t tell me to fuck off, like she usually does. “If you want her gone, just tell me and she’s gone.”
Kristen looks deep in my eyes, and I can tell she’s seriously thinking about it but she doesn’t say a word. I remove my hand from Kristen’s knee just in time for Lucy to prop herself on my lap. Her arms wrap around my neck and squeeze, obviously claiming me as he territory but completely embarrassing herself. I look at Kristen as Lucy kisses me and I’m not surprised to see Kristen get up from her seat. She frowns at Lucy and me before storming away. Charlie pats me on the shoulder before her and Bailey follow Kristen.
“Thank god we’re alone!” Lucy unnecessarily says loudly. Loud enough for the girls and Kristen to hear her.
“Shut up.” I snap at Lucy and her eyes widen in shock. “I told you, don’t fucking embarrass me.”
“Sorry Bear.” Lucy pokes out her bottom lip. “What can I do to make it up to you?” She bites down on her bottom lip, and ideas pop into mind. I might as well take her up on her offer.
Chapter Eight
Kristen
I haven’t seen Bear for a few days now and that’s how I like it. I can’t stand to see him right now, especially with Lucy hanging off him. The sight makes me feel sick. I’ve purposely kept distant from him because I need a little space. I’ve been feeling a little off and having Bear around me isn’t helping me feel any better. My mind has been torn too since he came to talk with me at breakfast and explained his side. Listening to what he had to say actually pleased me. It was nice to hear him speak without a cheesy line, however I did miss his humour. I honestly don’t know what I want and it’s giving me the mother of all headaches. I’ve always tried to keep Bear at a distance because he made it clear how he feels about me and I can’t handle that right now. Before all the shit with Venom, I would have eaten him alive and be in his bed every night. No question about it, but the experience I shared with some of these girls, has changed me forever and I don’t know how to act anymore. His attention sometimes reminds me of what I heard in the rooms of Venoms hidden torture house, even though I know Bear is absolute nothing like that monster. When Bear told me I could end things with him Lucy in a second, I was so tempted to tell him to do so but something stopped me and I had to witness Lucy pour herself all over him. She knows what she’s doing and her innocent act pisses me off. I’ve even overheard some of the club bunnies talk about her and the fact that they also do not like Lucy tells me what I need to know.
I’ve been seriously thinking things through and once I fight through my torment and anxiety, I think I know what I want but I just can’t bring myself to tell Bear this. I may seem tough and act like a bitch at times, but I promise you, it’s fake. I know I can’t bring myself to approach Bear and tell him to leave Lucy and have me. Be with me. Just thinking those words has my heart racing.
As I walk through the clubhouse, I hear some of the men laughing loudly as they talk. Curiosity gets the better of me when I hear Bear’s voice. I’ve stayed clear of him for as long as I can but hearing his voice and the laughter has me slowly approaching in secret.
“Yeah, her name’s Lucy.” Bear answers someone.
“Not that it matters.” Laughs Axe.
I roll my eyes, this is typical men talk and I’m going to hang around to hear what they have to say.
The laughing calms down and the talking returns. “So, are you two exclusive?”
“You want his girl?” Another asks. “Bro, that’s wrong.”
An unfamiliar feeling hits me in the stomach, like a punch. Thinking of Lucy as ‘his girl.’
“Lucy isn’t my girl.” Bear clarifies and the punch to gut disappears. “She’s just a distraction.”
I can’t keep back the smirk.
“From Kristen.” Axe adds and there’s some more laughing.
Bear then briefly explains what he was trying to tell me at breakfast the other day but then he shocks me with his next words.
“Lucy does give the best blowjobs through.” Anger and sickness build up inside of me as they all burst into laughter once more. “Probably the best I’ve ever had.”
“Seriously?” One of the brothers ask as my nausea builds.
“I think so.” Bear replies and I don’t like the sounds of it. My self-esteem feels knocked and I think it’s because before Venom kidnapped me, I stupidly prided myself on my blowjob skills. Don’t get it twisted though, I didn’t go around sucking every mans dick. It was only with boyfriends at the time and would always say how much they love my blowjobs. I know it’s silly and kind of dumb. Giving blowjobs it an odd thing to pride yourself in, but it gave me great sexual confidence. I feel jealous that Lucy has given Bear a blowjob and that he thinks she’s the fucking best at it. It’s actually my favourite way to please a man, with my mouth. Sometimes I even preferred to suck a cock instead of having sex! I thought I had lost the interest to wrap my mouth around a cock but feeling jealous of Lucy makes me realise I want to give Bear a blowjob and make him realise Lucy is not the right woman for him to do so. Wait until he receives one of mine. I’ll blow his mind. Wanting to compete with Lucy has brought back my desire, it was just lingering under the surface.
With a hell of a lot more confidence than I had just minutes ago, I continue walking and when I past the group of giggling men I just innocently glance over, as if I hadn’t been listening in on their conversation. Maybe gossip group is a lot more accurate.
“Hi guys.” I announce myself, giving them all a sweet smile, my eyes landing on Bear, “a word?”
Awkwardly glancing at the rest of the men, Bear nods. “You ok?” He asks me as he walks closer.
I nod, leading him in the direction of my room. “I need your opinion on something.”
This may seem really fucking stupid and pathetic but I once prided myself on my blowjob skills and now that I know how I feel because my jealousy bubbles more and more, I want to prove to Bear that his little toy isn’t better than me. In any way. I can’t stand Bear thinking Lucy is more talented than me. If it was anyone else then I wouldn’t give a shit, but Bear? I’ve now managed to figure out that I do actually like Bear, perhaps more than I originally thought. He’s grown on me I suppose. That annoys me, but the need to please is stronger than my annoyance.
“Sure.” Bear agrees, sounding a little confused and I understand why. The last time we spoke, it didn’t go so well I guess. He won’t be second guessing me soon though, because I plan on showing him just how good I can be.
My blood rushes and my heart skips a beat. I’m horny for the first time in a long time. It feels good. To be in control of my needs again.
We walk towards my room in silence but I keep looking over at him, offering my smile. Bear’s signature smirk returns and I know he’s feeling the atmosphere.
“Kristen, what are you doing?” He asks, Bear’s voice deep.
“I have something to show you.” I open the door to my room and step inside, holding it open for Bear to follow me inside, locking the door behind him. Bear raises his eyebrows. “What are you doing?” He laughs. Bear must think I’ve gone insane.
Standing opposite him, I begin. “I overheard what you and the brothers were saying.”
“You were eavesdropping?” This seems to shock him.
I giggle, smiling as I slowly walk to him. “One part really interested me.”
Bear seems to catch on, watching me seductively. “Really?” He asks. “Which part?”
I place my finger on his chest, poking his muscles and begin to circle his body. My finger trailing over his body. “Apparently, you’ve had the best blowjob that you’ve ever had?”